Saturday, March 20, 2010

F.A.T. to F.I.T.- Part 4- No Longer A Battle

The Battle of My Son........is no longer a battle!!! I spent many years fighting this battle, fighting others to get them to understand Jake. Below is the battle that I fought for many years and my thoughts about what I needed to do to stop this battle......

Battle of My Son
Trying to understand my son, getting my son to comply. Getting others to understand. Fighting with my son. I need to look at the big picture. Look at my son as a whole, instead of focusing on one part of him. Let go of expectations that I set and work with him to achieve the goals that will help him be successful today and tomorrow.


Part of the problem was that I was focusing on one part of him, it was all about how well he was doing in school. We got him tested, re-tested and tested again. I have a 2" binder filled with test results and meeting notes. I could write a book about the battles that I fought with teachers, administrators, Dano and with Jake.

Last year, I came to the realization that I wanted Jake to succeed more then Jake did. I was trying to keep his head above water and not realizing that I was drowning myself. So, I let go. I quit checking his grades on a daily basis, I quit fighting with him about doing homework. I came to the realization that he was the one who was going to have to pay the consequences for not doing his work.

Fast forward to where I sit today. I let go and here I sit a very PROUD mother of a young man who is a B student! He has worked hard to get to this point. He decided it's what he wanted. He wanted to get good grades so that he could go to college. He asks for help from his teachers when he doesn't understand, instead of not doing the work. He has established goals and is working towards them. He is proud to announce to me his grade point average and how well he is doing in school. We discuss his struggles and his successes, instead of me yelling at him and telling him what he needs to do.

I can't even express how very, very proud I am of Jake. I am soooooooooooo proud of him. School does not come easy for him....he has processing issues. Dano and I have worked with him to advocate for himself, to communicate to his teachers, to have goals, to understand that some things don't come easy and that in order to be successful in life you have to work hard!!!

Jake is not only doing well in school, he is a great athlete,and a very caring, sensitive and determined young man. Yahoooooo! Way to go Jake! I am soooo proud of you! Hard work does pay off! Love you! Mom

Monday, March 15, 2010

Good Quotes to Live By!

A few quotes I'd like to share! Happy Day!!!

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine. ~Anthony J. D'Angelo

Attitudes are contagious. Are yours worth catching? ~Dennis and Wendy Mannering

Life is a shipwreck but we must not forget to sing in the lifeboats. ~Voltaire

Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. ~Winston Churchill

Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day. ~Author Unknown

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. ~Mary Engelbreit

I've decided that the stuff falling through the cracks is confetti and I'm having a party! ~Betsy CaƱas Garmon

Why not learn to enjoy the little things - there are so many of them. ~Author Unknown

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Free*- Unchain My Lie!

Short and sweet- I continually overflow my plate, this is the baggage that I'm trying to set FREE. My belief is that I have to continually show my worth by doing things--the busier I am the more worth I have. This is starting to take a toll on my mind and my body!!! (The old grey mare, she ain't what she used to be!)

This week at church, JW talked about the 4 B's!

The BLAHS
Realizing and knowing you are trapped......yet staying trapped because you know your crap and you know what it is all about. Fear of Change! You don't change when you see the light, you change when you feel the heat ~ unknown

The BREAK
Deciding to make the change! Being the person God created me to be!
Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself. ~Leo Tolstoy

The BLUES
Getting used to the changes you've made. Looking at things in a different way. Feeling resistance from others because of the change that you are making.

The BLESSING
Being FREE...surrendering yourself to God. Feeling true security....true security only comes from God.

Part of our small group discussion this week was coming up with an action plan to change the one belief that we have. I shared that I was going to stop overflowing my plate to prove my worth.
The next part was what I was going to do to stop overflowing my plate, this was my answer:
--I'm going to restore balance in my life by focusing on the following areas
--family/friends (companionship)
--prayer/God time (peace)
--exercise, eating healthy and enjoying me time
--I won't say yes to every opportunity that comes my way
--I'm going to recognize when my plate is beginning to overflow and stop adding to it.
One of the ladies in the group looked at me and said, you are overflowing your plate with what you are going to do to stop overflowing your plate...how are you going to get all of that done! This was a HUGE reality check and a reminder of what I can't see....overflowing my plate with what I'm going to do to stop overflowing my plate!

Working on the lie that I've come to believe.....I have to continually show my worth by doing things--the busier I am the more worth I have.
I'm chained to this belief and it sucks!!!!!

My prayer is to unchain myself from this lie!
Unchain my lie, let me not believe
Unchain my lie, please help set me free......

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Yabba Dabba Do!!!!

Ok.....I decided I had to add some silliness to this blog. So, when I say Yabba Dabba Do...who do you think of??????? Fred Flintstone? Yes...that's who I was thinking about too.
The Flintstones my FAVORITE cartoon when I was growing up. Loved how they used their feet to power their cars, the people who played in the jazz band, pebbles and bam bam, the fact that no one ever changed their clothes, the garbage disposal was an animal under the sink.

Flintstones... Meet the Flintstones,
They're a modern stoneage family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones,
have a yabba dabba doo time,
a dabba doo time,
we'll have a gay old time

Thinking back.....their feet had to hurt and so did their backs. Sleeping on rocks would not be very comfortable. Can you imagine having to use your feet to make your car go? Could you imagine having a dinosaur as a pet? Or was Dino a dog? dogasaur? Have you ever wondered what Yabba Dabba Do meant? Good question.....no one really knows. Some of the rumors are that it means Yippee, Hooray or I love you. Those all work for me! In the song it says you will have a Yabba Dabba Do time....so it may mean good or fun, because gay back then meant happy!

Flintstones... Meet the Flintstones,
They're a modern stoneage family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Someday, maybe Fred will win the fight,
And that cat will stay out for the night.

When you're with the Flintstones,
have a yabba dabba doo time,
a dabba doo time,
we'll have a gay old time

"Wiiilllllmmmmmmaaaaaa!!!" bang bang bang

Loved the Flintstones and the Rubbles too!

Part Three- F.A.T. to F.I.T.

What battles do you fight? Is there a particular battle that you continually fight? We all battle something, it's a part of life. Trying to figure out what the battles are and why we continually fight them is part of life as well. The best thing about the battles, in case you don't already know this, we can choose to fight them or try to come to terms with them and sign a peace treaty! Your choice, no one else but you can make this choice!

Okay...now on to where I am with the battles that I fight!

Battle of Myself
This is the hardest battle that I fight, that we all fight!
I need to be content with myself- this is what has happened....when I become content with myself, I begin to overflow my plate. It's like the song that never ends. I feel good for a while, then BAM.....I start piling things on, volunteering for this or that, making commitments I shouldn't make. Soon I have so much on my plate that I become paralyzed. I see all the stuff on my plate and I don't know which task to tackle so I tackle none of them. The next thing I do is stress because I have so much to do. Stressing leads to a busy mind, which leads to being reactive, which leads to not communicating my feelings, which leads to pressure building inside of me, which leads to having to letting off a lot of steam, which leads to this freak that lives inside of me and she is an ugly freak! When she comes out it is not a pretty thing to see----she resembles Linda Blair in the movie The Exorcist!

Stop stressing, live for today!--- I aspire to get to this point all the time. I do allow myself to go here, it is freeing when I can concentrate on this quote and truly allow myself to live in the moment.

Let Go and Let God---along the lines of stop stressing and live for today. I have given up a lot of my worries to God. Especially situations I have no control over. Allowing things to happen, instead of trying to intervene. I've learned to do this with my teenage son and it has worked out pretty well. I will delve in to that more when I get to where I am with the Battle of My Son.

Let other know how I feel and what I expect (communicate) ---I do okay with this piece. I can do better....goes along with the plate overflowing and not trying to rock the boat. The people pleaser in me.

If I was going to grade myself on how I'm doing with the Battle of Myself, I would give myself a C+. There is definitely room for improvement. The most important thing is I recognize what my battles are with myself, now I just have to work to make a peace treaty!

Do you fight the "Battle of Myself"? Think about the battles you fight with yourself. What can you do to stop these battles? Recognize the battles and come up with a plan to make a peace treaty with yourself!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Quote!

I thought this quote was very appropriate for the blog today! It couldn't have arrived in my inbox at more convenient time!

"The battles that count aren't the ones for gold medals. The
struggles within yourself -- the invisible, inevitable battles
inside all of us -- that's where it's at."

-- Jesse Owens

Thursday, March 11, 2010

F.A.T. to F.I.T- Part Two

The Battles continued......

Battle of a Full Plate

Thinking there is too much on my plate. When my plate is not full, filling the plate until it is too full. Still eating after I'm full, another serving will help make me feel whole. I need to look for other ways to be content instead of filling my world with too much busyness. Stop and pray. Lay down and take a nap. Go on a walk and enjoy the scenery. Spend time with Dano. Listen to music. Read a book. Be okay with not being busy. Stop and look inside. Work from the inside out. Live in the moment.

Battle of Making Mountains out of Molehills
Stressing, obsessing, worrying, beating myself up. Thinking too much. Making more out of a situation then needs to be made. Being reactive instead of proactive. Being a victim instead of a survivor. Feeling sorry for myself. I need to put on a different pair of glasses and look at the situation in a different way. I need to look for solutions. I need to have more than one plan. I need to let go of expectations and try to work through things as they happen instead of trying to fight before and after a situation happens.

Part Three will focus on how I've dealt with the Battles over the past few years and where I am now with each battle.......stay tuned!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Going from F.A.T to F.I.T.- Part One

I wrote this a few years ago. When I'm struggling, I take out this piece that I wrote and read it over and over and over again.


Being F.A.T. (Frustrated, Anxious, Tense) makes me want to fight, drains me, makes me tired and clouds my mind. I say things I shouldn't, scream out when I should stay quiet. I continue to fight the battles after they are finished, thinking about them, talking about them, reliving them, not letting them die.
There are many battles that I fight........

The Battles that I Fight- Part One

Battle of Myself
Being reactive. Holding on to past mistakes. Not forgiving myself, Starting battles in my mind before there even is a battle to fight. Trying to control by making others happy. Keeping the peace. Not rocking the boat. I need to be content with myself. Stop stressing. Live for today. Learn as I go, not go as I have learned. Let go and Let God. Let it be. Let others know how I feel and what I expect (communicate).

Battle of Trying to be Perfect
I want everything to be perfect so that I can be content or I think everything has to be perfect so I can be content. Reaching perfectionism is an unattainable goal. I need to focus on progress not perfectionism. Begin content with who I am ans where I am. Realizing that I will not reach the point of having a perfect life. Understanding that I'm the only one who is holding me back! I need to embrace live, instead of holding it at arm's length.

Battle of My Son
Trying to understand my son, getting my son to comply. Getting others to understand. Fighting with my son. I need to look at the big picture. Look at my son as a whole, instead of focusing on one part of him. Let go of expectations that I set and work with him to achieve the goals that will help him be successful today and tomorrow.

More Battles to follow.........

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

HOPE

HOPE is putting faith to work when doubting would be easier. ~ unknown

Never deprive someone of HOPE, it may be all that they have. ~ H. Jackson Brown

Once you choose HOPE anything is possible. ~ Christopher Reeve

Today's blog is about HOPE!
This is what I HOPE for (in no particular order).......
sunny and warm days
less stress
a clear mind
safety and love for innocent children
a day to do nothing
world peace
hope for those who are struggling
comfort for those who are sad
to have a mind like a child again
to be able to do a front hand spring or back bend
slow drivers to get out of my way
fast drivers to slow down
white chocolate raspberry cheesecake to have no calories
safety for the men and women who fight everyday to keep us safe- God Bless you all!

That is all that comes to my mind at the moment....what do you HOPE for?

Saturday, March 6, 2010

FREE*dom the journey....

I know I said I was going to share my journey through the Free*dom series....well I'm on Chapter 3 and I decided that my journey at this point is going to have to remain a mystery! Sorry....for those of you who were looking forward to hearing about my baggage, I'm not even sure there is a whole lot of people who are even reading this blog....but that's okay. I am enjoying writing and maybe someday I will make this blog a book, you just never know!

I feel I owe an explanation as to why I've decided not to share the details of my journey through this series.......ok, I probably don't owe and explanation, but that's part of my make up or maybe part of my baggage!

Chapter 2---the exercise was to dig into the bag a little bit more and examine the pieces...did that, no problem.

Chapter 3---digging deeper in to the core to free myself from the baggage.....that's when the doors started flying open. I felt like I was standing at the top of a long hallway and all of a sudden the doors just started flying open. Part of me wanted to run down the hall and shut all the doors and another part wanted to see what was behind each door.

Okay now that I'm at this point.....I've shared my experience with the book but not the nitty gritty of what doors were opened and why. I guess I can still write about going through the process without sharing the nitty gritty....kind of boring but I recognize that at this point I can't go there, so I'm going to play it safe.

Creating some mystery with my journey to be FREE is where I'm going to leave it at this point!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Link to FREE* series workbook

Hey! If you are interested in checking out the workbook that goes with the FREE* series that I talked about in my blog a couple of days ago here's the link
http://www.crossroads.net/uploadedfiles/freeguide.pdf

You can save it on your computer and type in it, how cool! Ok, I'm amazed by the little things in life!!!

It's Your Choice...........

I receive a quote of the day e-mail everyday....to follow is the quote I received today. I liked it, so I am sharing-

"What do you first do when you learn to swim? You make
mistakes, do you not? And what happens? You make other
mistakes, and when you have made all the mistakes you possibly
can without drowning - and some of them many times over - what
do you find? That you can swim? Well - life is just the same
as learning to swim! Do not be afraid of making mistakes, for
there is no other way of learning how to live!" -- Alfred Adler


Sink or swim? That is what life is all about....making mistakes and learning from them. It's your choice whether you will sink or swim, no one else, but you, is responsible for the choices you make.

Yesterday, I made a visit to a local company as part of my job. In the lobby was the following poem:

The Bottom Line
Face It. Nobody owes you a living, what you achieve or fail to achieve in your lifetime is directly related to what you do or fail to do.

No one chooses his parents or childhood but you can choose your own direction.

Everyone has problems and obstacles to overcome, but that too is relative to each individual.

Excuses Are For Losers: those who take responsibility for their actions are the real winners in life. Winners meet life's challenge head on, knowing there are no guarantees, and give it all they've got.

Never think it's too late or too early to begin. Time plays no favorites and will pass whether you act or not.

Take Control Of Your Life!!! Dare to dream and take risks. If you aren't willing to work for your goals, don't expect others to....BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!--author unknown


Life, it's your choice what you will do with yours! If you make a mistake, learn from it! You are the one who makes the choice to sink or swim! Rise above your past, rise above whatever is holding you back.....you have to do it for yourself, no one else will do it for you!