I wrote this a few years ago. When I'm struggling, I take out this piece that I wrote and read it over and over and over again.
Being F.A.T. (Frustrated, Anxious, Tense) makes me want to fight, drains me, makes me tired and clouds my mind. I say things I shouldn't, scream out when I should stay quiet. I continue to fight the battles after they are finished, thinking about them, talking about them, reliving them, not letting them die.
There are many battles that I fight........
The Battles that I Fight- Part One
Battle of Myself
Being reactive. Holding on to past mistakes. Not forgiving myself, Starting battles in my mind before there even is a battle to fight. Trying to control by making others happy. Keeping the peace. Not rocking the boat. I need to be content with myself. Stop stressing. Live for today. Learn as I go, not go as I have learned. Let go and Let God. Let it be. Let others know how I feel and what I expect (communicate).
Battle of Trying to be Perfect
I want everything to be perfect so that I can be content or I think everything has to be perfect so I can be content. Reaching perfectionism is an unattainable goal. I need to focus on progress not perfectionism. Begin content with who I am ans where I am. Realizing that I will not reach the point of having a perfect life. Understanding that I'm the only one who is holding me back! I need to embrace live, instead of holding it at arm's length.
Battle of My Son
Trying to understand my son, getting my son to comply. Getting others to understand. Fighting with my son. I need to look at the big picture. Look at my son as a whole, instead of focusing on one part of him. Let go of expectations that I set and work with him to achieve the goals that will help him be successful today and tomorrow.
More Battles to follow.........
No comments:
Post a Comment